Little Glimpse of Understanding

It has really been a journey lately. Within the last year our plans have changed drastically more times than I can keep track of. There have been times of doubt and great frustration, but throughout the process I have been able to come to the conclusion that there must be a reason for all of this. My experiences in life, up until about a year ago, have been relatively simple. That's not to say that there were never problems, but the problems I did have resolved themselves fairly quickly and then life went on. This past year has been different. We have tried and seemingly failed at so many things... taking one path only to find it was a dead end and we needed to try something else. I've almost felt like I've been playing Monopoly and have just kept drawing "Go directly to jail do not pass GO do not collect $200".
During all of this one question kept arising: "Why?" Our goals have been good goals. I have felt like we have worked pretty hard at them, so why could we not attain what was "best for us"? Well, yesterday I got a call that gave me an answer to that question (at least regarding one of our trials). If you've kept up with my life, you know that we have tried over and over again to move to a place with low house payments and take a position with Silver State Helicopters using that scenario as a means to pay off the school loan. Of course, I was disappointed when we weren't able to buy the house in Queen Creek. Then, as we made plans to possibly move out of state a few months later, Spencer found out about the diabetes thing and the whole plan took a back seat as we focused on maintaining his health. So, over and over again our plans were delayed. Why? The phone call I got yesterday was from Spencer. He had just found out that Silver State Helicopters folded. They went out of business and fired all of their employees with most of them receiving no word of warning. Most of the students weren't even notified and found out through other sources. If we had followed OUR plan, we would be in serious trouble right now. We would be miles and miles away from friends and family with a mortgage or lease payment based on a healthy income and a hefty school loan payment coming out every month (not to mention all the moving expenses and other bills), and then suddenly we would be jobless. There are things that are not perfect about our situation right now, but the Lord has truly blessed our family and watched over us. He doesn't always shine a light ahead of us. Sometimes he just asks us to move forward in the dark and trust in Him. And when we choose to do that and develop faith in His love and care, we will eventually see and understand why He took us on the journey.
I know this is a lot deeper than I usually get with blog posts, but I want to take the oppourtunity to testify of some truth that I have learned. I know that there is a Father in Heaven who cares intensely for all of His children. He knows each of us by name and knows even of our most secret challenges and struggles. He will never abandon us. As we seek His help, He will lead us to truth and to happiness, although it won't often be immediate or easy. Even if it has been a long time since we have truly come to Him and given our life to His hands, He is ready and waiting. All we have left to do is realize this and trust that He will make us better than we can even hope to be. I'm very grateful for all of the blessings in my life right now, and especially for this experience. I think I'm finally starting to get it. And I'm so grateful for this little glimpse of understanding.